1 month without you. I’m still struggling.

On August 8th, my 13 year old poodle jumped off our bed in a frenzy and hit our tv stand. She broke 2 discs in her upper spine. The ER vet gave her pain medications and said she didn’t qualify for surgery due to age. Spoke to her vet when the office opened in the morning and they said she would need round the clock care and physical therapy, but that would never be able to walk again. She lost complete feeling on the right side of her body, wasn’t sleeping, and was withholding her potty breaks. The accident happened at 1:30am and I stood awake with her the entire time trying to make her as comfortable as possible.

The afternoon of August 9th, we made the unfortunate decision to euthanize her for quality of life. We knew we couldn’t give her the round of clock care she was going to need. She tried so hard to prop herself up cause she was so miserable and constantly crying from pain despite being on 2 different pain medications.

We were robbed of our final moments. I had an entire plan for when I knew the day would come and I couldn’t give that to her. She went out in such pain but was surrounded by loved ones. I’m still so angry at the entire thing— it was a horrible accident that took her away from me.

She would’ve been 14 this November. You were my favorite cuddle buddy. You were the absolute joy in my life. I miss you forever and always.

My poodle noodle, my precious Alex.