My little old mans crossed the rainbow bridge today 😭 R.I.P Bobby 01/05/08-08/09/25

I really don’t know what I’m going do now. I owe my life to Bobby 😭 I’ve had a rough couple of years to say the least. I had my own health problems, then I found out my partner of 9years had been cheating on me (forgave her), then my Nan got diagnosed with cancer, then my brother was diagnosed with M.S. I had to have an operation on my stomach & then I found out my partner had still been cheating. Then I I developed a cocaine & gambling addiction. I didn’t realise it at the time because it’s really hard to admit it to yourself. I’d had enough & tried to hang myself. I had the noose around my neck & just had Bobby looking at me with them cute eyes & I just couldn’t do it to him. I admitted to myself I have these addictions which was hard & it’s even harder to tell somebody else & seek help but that’s what I did. I asked a group leader at work told him everything. He asked me to put a deposit limit on my betting accounts & he would have another chat with me in a couple of weeks (because of the shifts he was on) he never had that chat. I felt stuck & lost. Bobby had then taken a turn for the worst. He started to have fits & I reached breaking point a few weeks later told another group leader that I need help & want to see a councellor. The next day I got drug tested & sacked. Bobby then had Ascites so I took him the vets & he was diagnosed with heart failure 😞 he just gradually got worse over the next couple of weeks, picked up for a few days like the fighter he is, then declined again. We have been there for eachother everyday & always managed to keep eachother happy through the worst of times. I just feel like I’ve got nothing now he’s gone. 😭 love him so much my boyyo Bob bobs 💔