Struggling with the grief of losing my soul mate so much 😭

I post about dealing with loss sometimes and I find that just letting it out in the void helps a little. Sometime. I designed my whole life around my Emma and it seems impossible to carry on without her. I feel like part of my mind is forgetting her. I have to really focus to remember her bark, her snore, the way she looked when she had done something naughty etc. On the other hand, I’m still waking up thinking I have to walk her, still going up the grocery aisles where I got her food, panicking when I drop something she’s not supposed to eat on the floor.

Does this happen to anyone else? This girl got me through moves to 2 countries, loss of a parent, a divorce and a number of unnamed miseries and happinesses. I lived for her. F cancer and the F the short lives they live. Emma: 21.06.2013-13.05.2025