In 3 hours, I have an appointment to put my dog down.

I’m not handling it very well. My dog, Benny, has been my everything for 12 years. He’s been my soul pet. He’s affectionate without being needy. Benny likes to always be near me and sometimes stretching a leg or a paw out just to touch me. He understands almost everything I say to him or ask him. Food motivated ? This dog would do anything for a treat.

I usually handle death pretty well. This is different. It’s scheduled. I know I’ll be walking in the vet clinic with my Benny Bear and I’ll leave without him. 💔 I actually hoped he would pass away during the night, while sleeping, since I made the euthanasia appointment. He’s been unwell and confused. He’s such a sweetheart.

He’s just fallen asleep after me playing with him and loving on him all morning. That’s why I’m typing away and not paying attention to him right now. I’ve saved my last $4 this month so I can buy him a cheeseburger before we go in to the vet. His diabetic self is going to be THRILLED over a cheeseburger.

Love your pets deeply.