Went back to the forest we loved to go to for the first time after she passed today 🤍

We had to euthanize her this summer, she was 12 years old and was having multiple strokes.. i grew up with this dog. We got her when we moved into our home 10 years ago and some part of me still hasent realized she isnt here anymore. I loved this dog with all my heart, she watched me grow up and so did i. I went to the forest earlier not thinking to much about it, and while taking the track we always took when we got out it hit me. That she isnt here anymore, that now shes dead and there is nothing i can do to bring her back. I miss her every second, and going there without her i felt incredibely sad. At some point i stopped and sighed looking around me, trying to find her because i thought she was with me and just dissapeared into the forest by herself like she would always do. But shes simply gone. And i sherish every memories i made with her everyday. The last months of her life were hard. We hzd to help her walk, we had been told she could never walk again, she did. She walked she ran she jumped even tho it was hard for her she kept fighting, until she couldnt anymore. I woke up one morning we told me "shes at the vet, you can come she will be euthanized at 3pm." And i cried so loudly for hours, but i knew it was the better thing to do because she was in pain. I love my baby with all my heart and i always will, i miss her everyday and i hope wherever she is, she knows we all loved and cared for her, everyday and even now still. 🤍

Excuse me if i make mistakes, english isnt my first language at all. I hope i make sense