I had to put my Honey down on the 20th and I’m so lost

5 days without her. 5. It’s not real. These 5 days have been absolute hell. How am I gonna go on? She’s my little white shadow. We were connected at the hip. I don’t have a job so 24/7, it was just the 2 of us.

She was 15 and I had her since she was 2 months. These have been the best 15 years with her. Well, they’ve been hell a lot but never for long. All I’d need to do is look at that goofy little face. I’m just still in absolute disbelief. 15 years is a long time but at the same time, it isn’t. At all. It’s way too short. I need her back.

Will this get any easier? I feel like I’m gonna die from crying so much.