Saying Goodbye

This is my last weekend with Daisy. After kidney disease and now cancer, I’ve made the heartbreaking decision to have her euthanized at home. A vet will be coming this afternoon.

Daisy has been with me through so much. A divorce, my child’s addiction treatment, so many ups and downs of life, but Daisy was my constant companion. Covid was one of those mixed blessings where we spent all the time together and being with her was a large reason for my push to work from home after that.

She’s the sweetest dog whom everyone just loves. It’s hard not to. She has the most gentle disposition and even in the last days, she might not want me to pet her (I think it hurt) she would follow me room-to-room and look at me (as well as she could as she was mostly blind!) with those big squirrel eyes.

She’s pretty drugged up on pain meds this weekend so we’ve just been spending time together eating popsicles.

I don’t know what I’m going to do without her. The house will be so empty. It’s so hard. I question if now is the right time? She’s 14 years old and I know she’s had a good life. It’s selfish but I love her so much and I’m going to miss her so much.