My sweet baby was put down about an hour ago after a very short and intense battle with intestinal cancer. She went from being completely fine running around to pooping blood and vomiting in only one night.
She was my soul dog, I begged my parents for a dog growing up and they never allowed me to get one until we got her and I was in my freshman year of high school. She was really there for me in all of my most difficult times. I went through a lot of heart break, the death of three grandparents, and family issues during those years. She was always there. Around 4 years ago I joined the military and moved overseas. I was doing bad in school due to a breakup and had $0 to my name so it felt like the only option. As someone with anxiety I always had the overarching fear that I would lose her before I got back home for good. She was 10 years old. A sheltie poodle mix. I will be home for good in 8 months. I face timed my family and was there during her passing. I still feel so empty. I now have a fear of coming home, walking in the door… knowing she won’t be there to greet me. Honestly I just needed to vent. With that being said this is my first time dealing with pet loss. I’m not sure what will help but if you have any advice, a similar story, or even just some kind words please comment below.
TLDR; my seemingly healthy dog passed away due to cancer, I’m in the military so I didn’t get to be there. I’m devastated. Comment advice or your experience, I’m looking for some support.