Unadoptable Zuzu

I started fostering Zuzu in August of 2019. I fostered her for about a year. Not one inquiry, much less application, was made for her. She came into foster care heartworm positive, with a broken pelvis that had healed on its own that the vet recommended leaving alone, and terrified of humans. Zuzu was born at a hunt club to a poodle that had wandered onto the property, and a beagle. Her matted hair had to be shaved off. She finished hw treatment while I fostered her. She had to be sedated for grooming. Zuzu grew up feral, and nothing is going to truly change her into a 100% pet dog. It took me forever to realize she is also partially deaf. Deaf dogs take their cues from their other senses and their pack mates (I have 3 other dogs). It definitely helped reduce her 'startle' response to know about her deafness - I step hard on the floor or pat the couch till she looks at me now, for example. It took about a year to be able to get her to reliably come back inside without being captured. She generally runs in and out with the other dogs. Sometimes she won't come in with the gang, and I open the door wide open and make a point to turn my back so she can sneak past me. She started sleeping on my bed around year 2, at the far corner. If I moved, she was under it. I feed my dogs in crates. I began taking her into my room to eat breakfast, while I went back to bed. She started moving further up the bed, and now sleeps about pillow height beside me (only in the a.m.) and lets me pet her when I wake up. She gets silly bed zoomies and flops over on me and sniffs my face, chuffing at me and headbutting me for scritches. But that ends when we leave the room. She got as far away from me as possible when she first arrived. She will get on the opposite end of the loveseat now, especially if there are other animals on it. This may be the best it will ever be for interactions between me and Zuzu, but she is silly and happy and adores her packmates, and is cautiously friendly with me. She was at risk of being euthanized as unadoptable, so I adopted her. And I love her. If you adopt a dog with the kinds of needs Zuzu has, the successes will feel amazing when they come. Anyhow, she put her foot on my leg and leaned in to sniff my face while we were on the loveseat and I was surfing Reddit, so I just wanted to share her story.