I had to put my baby down this morning

I don't know why I'm really posting this, or if it'll even make me feel better, but maybe I just want to feel like I'm not alone in how awful I feel losing a pet.

This is Princess, I adopted her because I just wanted to look at the dogs at the kennel one day to cheer myself up (wasn't intending on adopting that day). When I walked in to the kennels, the very first dog I saw, right on my left was this baby looking up at me with the most big beautiful eyes; and immediately I knew she had won. A week later and I adopted her and brought her home.

I only had her two years, and I won't lie and say every moment was great or easy, but I loved her in every moment that I had her. She had truly become my baby. I did my best to take care of her better than I took care of myself, and I had hopes that would give me reason to treat myself better too.

She was my lover girl; so friendly and happy and always excited to see me. It's only been a few hours but I miss her so much already.

A few weeks ago she ate up a carpet while I was out, and it created a blockage in her intestines. I found some great veterinarians that did their best, but they said it was one of the most rough surgeries he'd ever done, and in the end, the surgery didn't stick, and one of the internal sutures must've ripped they guess

This morning I took her to my usual vet and we agreed that putting her down would be the most reasonable decision given any expectations.

This has been one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. I loved that dog with all my heart, and I will always love her.

I don't really know what I'm hoping for in sharing all of this, but I guess I just wanted to share my baby girl with the world. It may be a dumb nickname, but I used to call her dogalicious or my gorgelicious, because she was my most beautiful girly dog. Idk, I miss her. I wish I could've done more for her.

EDIT: I want to thank everyone for their words. I've calmed down for sure, I just miss her, but things will get better.