she was only 7

she started crying at night randomly early february, we took her to a 24/7 vet & they told us she’s blind in one eye and she’s knuckling one of her paws so she most likely had a stroke or a brain tumor. that an mri would be over 2k. & that even if it was a tumor that a lot of vets don’t do that type of surgery?? we got her steroids and pain meds for the meantime. before i even had a chance to save money she passed march 4th during a seizure. it’s been 3 days and im depressed as shit. everyone is telling me that she had an amazing life and to be happy she’s not suffering anymore but idk. i feel like any room i walk through in my house im always going to be reminded of her. im riddled with the shoulda coulda woulda scenarios. ive lost a dog before but she was 15 so im thinking it was a little easier to accept. the fact that my current dog was only 7 is really eating at me. life fucking sucks.