Said goodbye to our little girl today. It hurts so much.

Almost 18. Had been suffering from arthritis in her hips, circling, big loss in vision, walking became difficult and was really struggling to get up from lying down. These last few months saw a big decline in her mobility. We kept on debating if the time was right to say goodbye. Then two days ago she started to arch round to her back while lying down and really whine and cry, could not get up. It was heartbreaking, I would try and calm and comfort her but would go on all night if I was not there to help. We made the decision to go to the vets today and give her peace. Slipped away on my knee while my partner held her head, looking into her eyes.

It really hurts now, the house seems so quiet and empty. I know it was the right thing do to end her pain and discomfort. Keep asking myself if I we did it too early. So many doubts in my mind. But then I couldn’t see her suffer. I miss my little baby so much.