Spent my last christmas with him. I now have to say goodbye.

A shelter was supposed to pick him up last week but I asked for it to be pushed back so I can spend one last christmas with him. It was the best decision I’ve made this year. Just devastated that we will be separated so Ive been hugging him every chance that I get.

I know he’ll be confused when we part but I plan to visit him every time I could. What’s funny is I have a full time job now but I still can’t afford to get him his insulin and dietary dog food after getting shit ton of payday loans and loaning from friends just to stay afloat. To make everything worse I had to sell my mcbook when he had to have a surgery so I lost my 2nd source of income this year.

The shelter couldn’t promise that he won’t be euthanized but Im willing to risk it since I can no longer get him more insulin. I intend to get him back next year so I have no more payday loans to pay. I just hope that he knows Im not abandoning him. Im probably gonna be judged a lot here but i just really needed to vent.