i lost my best friend on saturday..

khloe and i grew up together. she was born in my parents house when i was just 4yo. i haven’t stopped crying since she passed in my arms. and i feel so damn guilty and i feel that i let her go too quickly.

on friday night i got a call from my boyfriends family since i live with them, they told me that khloe had two seizures and she was puking and urinating herself all over the house and i feel guilty because i was out getting drunk with my family and couldn’t even go home to comfort her. she had already been struggling with joint pains and losing mobility in her back legs.

on saturday morning when i got home she seemed okay but i didn’t want her to have to go through any more seizures or pain so i scheduled to have her put to sleep because i didn’t want her to suffer anymore

i feel guilty. and i miss her so fucking much. she loved me her whole life and i’ll miss her for the rest of mine.