i had to put down my childhood dog this morning and i cannot cope

i had to put down my childhood dog, Lindsey, this morning. i feel absolutely inconsolable and heartbroken. all day long im trying to feel her presence still with me. i miss her so much. my friends invited me over but i feel like nothing can change what im feeling right now. i dont even know what to do with myself. im so scared im going to forget what its like to pet her, and play with her. im so scared of forgetting what shes like.

she was the sweetest dog in the world, so full of love. she never did a bad thing and she meant so much to me. im so grateful my family and i gave her a good life.

before we adopted lindsey she was abused, she was so anxious and scared when we got her. the day she passed, there wasnt an ounce of that left in her. im so thankful for her, im so deeply heartbroken right now i just want five more minutes with my baby girl. i love you lindsey.

if anyone has any advice on how to deal with this loss im all ears :/